7 days still no server

Don't get me wrong yippy no work, but really now, why not rather tell me to come in a little later so that i can have my snooze in. SELFISH! Internet is not stable, clients i-rate, me i-rate! I need to just get to work and get on with it, no...

Head to Toe

I am not perfect I have big eyes so you see my truth I am big narrow cheeks and big lips I am wonky shoulders I am skinny arms I am breasts that pillow all your worries and joys  I am mommy belly and fire-marks and proud I am...

Regret is a cheap Thief

There comes a time in a girl life where she's gotta embrace her woman self and that time for me is now! I wont say that I've not been a restless, twisted, chaos of nerves of excitement prior to the Big 30. Just because i haven't achieved all i...

Why Didn't you hear me

yes i'm going through my life crisis i say to you, give me some time and a little space you say why cant i talk to you, why do i push you away  i say to you i'm in a place where nothing makes sense and there's no motivation you say...

May i have a new Heart

The heart i have is worn out  the heart i have is bruised  the heart i have does not know what to feel  the heart i have has cried too much the heart i have has bled over the heart i have no longer beats 1.1,2.1 the heart i...

Tender Ears

everything else fails but not you so then i can call you the failed  everything else is coming undone therefore its you i blame everything else is slipping from grip so then its you i blame  everything is clouding judgement so then its you...

Cupid Be Mocked

I surrendered to my wants in that after i had voiced them they were no longer a nagging pest! I listed them all on imperceptible paper and shouted out in my loudest inaudible of voices that i no longer want u! you are just demon...

I AM FIERCE

Your invisible power over me is NO Longer!  Shout as loud as the hell fires erupting from the Devils Gut! Knock down all the walls of your  "carefully" calculated Snake-like Sneakery  Call all your soldiers of  brainwashed loyalty Erupt...

How I love you indeed lets count the ways…

  I believe in love, I believe that one will never just be blessed with only one true love, there are many and they are different kinds of true love and its just easier not to categorize or for some to acknowledge. I loved him so much, I am now...

The Bells Do Not Ring For Me

Here you are again Others Excite in your arrival  I start rebuilding the Armour of blind faith and hope Others are Filled with the rumblings of the "Surprise"  I sadly wonder where the next nefarious emotional explosion will erupt ...

Silently We are Bound

Silently I listen to what others miss to hear  Silently I  see what others fail to look at  Silently I whisper what others talk at you Silently I know the scent the scent that binds us  Silently I feel you in our combined spirits others...

Am i really that selfish...???

This year has been the most  gut-grueling experience of my existence to date. I have done it all; lost a home, barely had money, i am barely keeping my job "afloat" and my sanity is most definitely at its whits end hanging on to thread far fragile...

My Best Friend

How do you say thank you to someone who's be-friended you for over 15 years without seeming cheesy or cheeky... How do you express yourself to this person without freaking them out to de-friend you on how strongly you appreciative of them How do...

You notice the meaningless

He notices that i am late for work He ignores that when the client was screaming to a panic i spoke and the calm was the eye of the storm Henotices that i supposedly took a liberty lunch He ignores that for a week before i never left my desk...

Being Hurt

You cut me so deep i felt my heart quiver with antisipation You cut me so deep i wondered if i was in the now or then You cut me so deep recovery is a luxurious torture of dreams You cut me so deep my eyes are tickled by the idea of tears ...

The Right Now...?

I can see myself in the mirror but i dont acknowledge that i am I can feel that my heart strings are holding on by their tethers but i refuse to heal I can stare at my sorrow but i chose to be a mere shadow of myself I can feel the shadows as...

Am i being Pathetic?

I've never begged for anything and i've never wanted for nothing in my life. I grew up in Rosebank with my gran and the Jews i have never felt the uglyness of racism until maybe 1999 i was lucky and blessed enough to be surrounded by humble foke....

Diplomacy

I refuse to treat another human bieng as if they are a beast! You mite be ok with shouting profanities at folks I refuse to be remembered as sumone who erupted from a volcano's womb! You mite be ok with havin the image of being ugly insdy out...

Celebrating Love

Today is the day that Love gets put on a Pedestal... Today those who hate to love will love to hate... Today u need not explain y and what is the feeling of butterflies in my tummy Today your excuse for cruelty will not be tolerated Today...

Ink is to paper is to closer to Free!!!

Keep writing coz its free Keep writing coz its therapy Keep writing coz its listening Keep writing coz its innocent Keep writing coz its one step closer... Keep writing coz it is unconditional Keep writing coz...

Over The Hump

Today is a good day. The anger is calm The day is promising great suprises My world makes sense, i fear not the unknown of tomorrow I dare to say i hit rock bottom and then i was lifted, who said i had to cry me eyes to puff balls!!! ...

Another Sad Day

I feel as thou my chest is going to explode with the pain thats numbing my spirit. I work hard, i pay my bills, i love my kids, i am faithful to the husband, I honour my role as the eldest of 7 sisters but no! I regret not the experiences of my...